The hungry stay foolish

Warm cookies on a Monday morning, no big deal. 

A time for everything

Manila, 01:05 AM. A glass of Shiraz and Marcel Pagnol's The Time of Secrets and The Time of Love. 

Affairs of the heart

Things have not been going well in the love front and that's okay because every time my love life is in shambles, I take it as an excuse to eat Chinese and watch the first two seasons of Sex in the City. Well, you know, we can't have it all in one time. I see your wandering heart and I raise you mine, filled with beef and broccoli and shrimp fried rice.

Focus, freedom, focus

In which I (vaguely) update you about my recent big decisions or what's going on in my life right now. If you have no time to read, there's a short summary here.

I have more free time now. More free time than I'd like, truth be told, and it's a disconcerting (but truly welcomed) feeling. I've been wanting a break from things for so long and I finally have it now. I feel like life is trying to teach me a lesson. I've always had a stubborn, jump head first attitude. I never really think things through. I have always been a fan of biting off more than I can chew.

I'd like to believe that in place of dreams that die a quick death, a rebirth happens. Something different, but better and bigger than plans I alone have made for myself. I like the idea of that. I like believing in reasons that will only surface through time. One of the lessons I learned this year is that all things truly great take time and tremendous effort. The road to success is tedious and no one will give me anything. I like that challenge but it's impossible to rise to that challenge when I'm distracted. I have to focus and regroup. I believe better paths are rewarded to people who continuously try and pull themselves back up to start over again.

I'm not a stranger to disappointment management, dream realignment, holding on and then letting go of goals that prove to be futile. I think in one way or another, I knew that adulthood will wake me from the idyllic dreams I once had in my youth. And although it seems that guiding lights rarely come to jaded, undiscovered twenty-somethings (or twenty-flat in my case) of my generation, I know that one day, after we've dusted ourselves off these sad, real world stumbles, we'll find our way again.

It doesn't have to happen all in one time.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you

"I can imagine being about 40 and looking for him and turning up and he's settled, and he's got a beautiful wife and some beautiful kids and he's completely happy and I'm still on my own. It's kind of about that, I'm quite scared at the thought of that."

Adele talking about her song, 'Someone Like You'

Hello. Here's something from Adele. I got hold of her album, 21, earlier this week. It was fantastic and as always, she is amazing. I can't help but feel a little small whenever I hear her and think about everything she's done at 21--her depth as a writer and an artist blows me away. My favorite tracks from her album are Rumour Has It, Rolling in the Deep and of course, Someone Like You. I just love her way with words. She is a wonderful companion on Saturday nights alone. :) *"What's that smell?" "Bitterness."*

In other news, my life is in shambles. I am unhappy most of the time and that's because I bite off more than I can chew--literally and figuratively speaking. No, not really. I'm not that unhappy. It's just that it's taking quite some time for me to start things I'm supposed to be doing this year. I just want to focus more on school, have more time for it and start doing what I do well, in a place I've always wanted to find myself in. It's going to come, eventually, but you know, it's the wait that's killing me.

I just really need a win right now. Anyway enough of me, just listen to Adele. She's amazing. I hope everybody's having a great month. So far, 2011 hasn't been that fun for me. Oh.

You'd know how the time flies.
Only yesterday was the time of our lives.
We were born and raised in a summery haze.
Bound by the surprise of our glory days.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,
That for me, it isn't over yet.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead".

♥